Friday, January 2, 2009

The Ride Continues


Its when something snaps that one gets forced to do a reality check n wonder if its time to realign one’s perspectives about life… And something did snap… then some more did… In a cruelly unfair world, it’s a sensible thing to take chances. So I decided to go by the best of three tosses. But I wasn’t exactly taking chances here, coz instead of flipping a dumb coin, I decided to pick three most important and sensible people who know me inside-out, and who’ve always stood by me through thick and thin, and ask them whether they felt I should be re-evaluating my take on life post the current turn of events. Being the first time in 8 years that im actually asking a second person to evaluate my choices of actions, I feared the worst. The first answer turned out to be a definite no…the second one, an even more definite no… so I decided not to bother the third person. And here I am, following the same ol road iv been traveling despite the fact that it has started getting grittier and a whole lot rougher …And then came the most encouraging piece of advice for the day from none other than Rocky Balboa… I have no idea why I ended up picking that dvd from a stack of about a hundred others… very random choice… And Rocky’s piece of advice to his son made more sense than ever.. So here is how it goes:

When you were this small, I'd hold you up to say to your mother, "this kid's gonna be the best kid in the world. This kid's gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew." And you grew up good and wonderful. It was great just watching you, every day was like a privilege. Then the time come for you to be your own man and take on the world, and you did. But somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you're no good. And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know... The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that! I'm always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens. You're my son and you're my blood. You're the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, ya ain't gonna have a life

Never for once thought Rocky would give me this strong a moment … I guess, given the right circumstances, anything can give u an energy-boost! Every once in a while we get a feeling that we’ve seen it all and that there is no situation that can chicken us out… but there is always one out there. And when that time comes and you find something standing right in front of you, something that ain't running and ain't backin up and is hittin on you and you are too damn tired to breathe. If you find that situation on you, thatz good, coz thatz baptism under fire! You get thru that and you find the only kind of respect that matters in this world, Self respect!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

DAMN!!...shez nailed me!

You should refrain from pumping iron, sketching for long hours, and using the comp for more than 2 hours at a stretch, the doc says!!..that about covers everything that i am!!... RSI, he says... Repetitive Strain Injury... Seems iv been straining myself too much and not sleeping enough lately.. Its like some sick bondage-play gone wrong!!.. She(RSI, ofcrs)has screwed up my right wrist, elbow, and shoulder..Think the bitch has gotten the better of me???...NO WAY!!.. I refuse to succumb!!.. bring it on babe!!..is that the best shot u got?

Okay..gotta fight this one the smart way...stay with me, i'l keep ya posted!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Batman forever...

It has been a while since i started feeling like a superhero living a double life. Out there, is my alter ego, - the regular guy doing a regular, boring, secure job. But once i don my creative gear, i get transformed into this superhero who saves the day by sketching, visualizing, creating dreamworlds.. The amount of physical n emotional strength that the two parallel lives keep demanding of me has started exceeding what i can handle. My body and mind gives me warning signals.. The time has come and i'm gonna have to choose between the two.. With her ('Robin') by his side adding to his strength and courage, this batman has decided to be batman forever.. Adieu to the trodden path and Bruce Wayne again! The real battle begins

Friday, March 21, 2008

Random rambling


....its a fact that most ppl dont realize...one can get to know only a very small number of people in a life time. All these social circles and parties give us the illusion that our worlds are crowded...but how many ppl do we really really know?...frankly, i do blieve that one lifespan is too short a time-period to even get to know oneself fully. It's quite natural - even i am pretty apprehensive about letting people share close emotional proximities with me. Happens when you have been bitten a couple of times. Many of us end up living in dream worlds as it seems to be a safer option..and it goes on till perhaps when you come across someone you feel is worth taking the risk for.Look around, and we find that there really isnt much of reality left..people wanna spend their time lost in movies, music, books, ...each of which is infact a temporary suspension of reality - a kind of self hypnosis that we keep doing on a regular basis...the more creative amongst us go for stuff which demands even more involvement..like writing our own stories and creating our own worlds and characters...One has to be either suicidal, or completely boring to want to be realistic

Tuesday, February 12, 2008


These are the times when one gapes at the heights of ignorance. One wonders how a person can possibly be so not aware of the causes of the simplest of things happening around her. The ‘her’ in question being the ignoramus in the sketch above. Or could it be that she is just playing clueless? .. or is it plain modesty? .. I know not

The dodo keeps asking me “You are ‘beautiful’…how can anyone stay so ‘beautiful’?” … and me being not so modest a bloke, keeps accepting every compliment thatz coming my way. Though it was with a pinch o salt at first, eventually I took the above compliment too, to my credit, not taking into account the ‘sissy-ness’ of the word. Then it came as a sudden realization-like that 1000 watt bulb that just pops up inside the dark alleys of your mind throwing light at all those minor details you have been missing out on.
I decided to pack my backpack with all the supplies I would need for ma lil expedition, travel through one and all of those neglected alleys, and get to the bottom of the mystery – The root cause of my..ahem!..’beauty’. Every road I explored took me to the same thing. I realized all of a sudden that despite all the thousands of hours of my life that the mean clock has ruthlessly ticked away there were actually 17,520 hours which the meanie could do nothing about… I haven’t missed out on even a single second that passed during the last two years of my life. Topped with a 20 tonne inborn reluctance, I admit that the credit for this does not go to me.

When you keep something that is beautiful beyond description so close to your heart, atleast some of the beauty is bound to rub off on you. Sometimes the ‘beautiful being’ can be dumb enough not to realize that the beauty reflecting off the one so close to her is her own. ..Or, as I said earlier, she could be being blatantly modest. Either way, I gotta tell you guys that ever since she contaminated my life with her presence, every moment ……….has been worth living…every moment seemed to make me grow younger. My dreams seem to be growing every day… and I believe life is all about dreaming… and since my dreams are never gonna cease to exist, they make me immortal. Looks like I’ve found ma fountain of youth, and I got no intention of letting anyone else drink from it. But however, u can always get one of your own… Good luck ;) ..and happy second anniversary to us !!

Friday, January 25, 2008